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<channel><title><![CDATA[HEALING MOUNTAIN MENTAL HEALTH - Blog]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog]]></link><description><![CDATA[Blog]]></description><pubDate>Tue, 31 Mar 2026 18:42:39 -0600</pubDate><generator>Weebly</generator><item><title><![CDATA[Adult ADHD: Quick Facts]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/adult-adhd-quick-facts]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/adult-adhd-quick-facts#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Wed, 14 Jun 2023 18:22:54 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/adult-adhd-quick-facts</guid><description><![CDATA[Welcome to part one of Healing Mountain's lightning series on mental health disorders!&nbsp; For readers, clients, and anyone who wants a good resource to share with loved ones or friends that may need help understanding your&nbsp;mental health disorder, we've created a series of infographics that are easy to read, fun to look at, and still chock-full of good information.&nbsp; For our first topic, we're focusing on adult ADHD, as this is a common disorder that is often misunderstood and misdiag [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:59.360730593607%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph">Welcome to part one of Healing Mountain's lightning series on mental health disorders!&nbsp; For readers, clients, and anyone who wants a good resource to share with loved ones or friends that may need help understanding your<em>&nbsp;</em>mental health disorder, we've created a series of infographics that are easy to read, fun to look at, and still chock-full of good information.&nbsp; For our first topic, we're focusing on adult ADHD, as this is a common disorder that is often misunderstood and misdiagnosed.&nbsp; <strong>Click "<a href="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/adult-adhd-quick-facts" target="_blank">read more</a>" to view the infographic!</strong> (If you would like to access the resources, they are listed below!)</div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:40.639269406393%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0;margin-right:0;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/stay-2_orig.gif" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div><!--BLOG_SUMMARY_END--></div><div><div id="630612711485022314" align="left" style="width: 100%; overflow-y: hidden;" class="wcustomhtml"><div style="position: relative; width: 70%; height: -30%; padding-top: 200.0000%; padding-bottom: 0; box-shadow: 0 2px 8px 0 rgba(63,69,81,0.16); margin-top: 1.6em; margin-bottom: 0.9em; overflow: hidden; border-radius: 8px; will-change: transform;"><iframe loading="lazy" style="position: absolute; width: 100%; height: 100%; top: 0; left: 0; border: none; padding: 0;margin: 0;" src="https://www.canva.com/design/DAFjMIFLYDw/watch?embed" allowfullscreen="allowfullscreen" allow="fullscreen"></iframe></div><a href="https://www.canva.com/design/DAFjMIFLYDw/watch?utm_content=DAFjMIFLYDw&amp;utm_campaign=designshare&amp;utm_medium=embeds&amp;utm_source=link" target="_blank" rel="noopener">What is Adult ADHD Really like?</a> by Sam Martin</div></div><div class="paragraph">To access a read-only link to this infographic, click <a href="https://www.canva.com/design/DAFjMIFLYDw/t85eI2NRa3LCItTKu-ROSw/watch?utm_content=DAFjMIFLYDw&amp;utm_campaign=designshare&amp;utm_medium=link&amp;utm_source=publishsharelink" target="_blank">here</a>.<br><br><strong>References and Resources</strong><br><a href="https://www.psycom.net/adhd/adult-adhd-what-it-feels-like-to-have-it" target="_blank">Adult ADHD: What it Feels Like to Have It - Psycom</a><br><a href="https://www.thescienceofpsychotherapy.com/prefrontal-cortex/#:~:text=The%20prefrontal%20cortex%20(PFC)%20is,making%2C%20and%20moderating%20social%20behaviour." target="_blank">Prefrontal Cortex - Science of Psychotherapy</a><br><a href="http://ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4301030/#:~:text=continue%20into%20adulthood%3F-,Dr.,disorder%20when%20they%20become%20adults.&amp;text=Unfortunately%2C%20the%20diagnosis%20of%20adult,actually%20diagnosed%20and%20adequately%20treated." target="_blank">Our Current Understanding of Adult ADHD - Innovations in Clinical Neuroscience<br>&#8203;</a><a href="https://www.benefits.gov/news/article/471" target="_blank">ADHD Resources on Benefits.gov</a></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Recovery in Action: Peer Support as a Profession]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/recovery-in-action-peer-support-as-a-profession]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/recovery-in-action-peer-support-as-a-profession#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Fri, 07 Apr 2023 15:38:23 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/recovery-in-action-peer-support-as-a-profession</guid><description><![CDATA[Many of us in the mental health field or helping professions are what Carl Jung described as&nbsp;"wounded healers", but no profession is better suited to this archetype than that of the peer support specialist.&nbsp; This last year, I took Peer Support 101 with Montana's Peer Network&nbsp;and became certified as a peer support specialist.&nbsp; To be quite honest, the training itself was a huge catalyst in some of the amazing steps I have taken in the past few months.&nbsp; In fact, I would say [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="paragraph">Many of us in the mental health field or helping professions are what Carl Jung described as&nbsp;<a href="https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-empowerment-diary/202201/are-you-wounded-healer" target="_blank">"wounded healers"</a>, but no profession is better suited to this archetype than that of the peer support specialist.&nbsp; This last year, I took Peer Support 101 with <a href="https://mtpeernetwork.org/" target="_blank">Montana's Peer Network</a>&nbsp;and became certified as a peer support specialist.&nbsp; To be quite honest, the training itself was a huge catalyst in some of the amazing steps I have taken in the past few months.&nbsp; In fact, I would say that being a peer support specialist has changed my life, and I think&nbsp;<em>everyone</em> should know about it.&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;</div>  <div>  <!--BLOG_SUMMARY_END--></div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:left;">What is a Certified Behavioral Health Peer Support Specialist (CBHPSS)?</h2>  <div class="paragraph">&#8203;<span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">To become a certified behavioral health peer support specialist (CBHPSS), you must be diagnosed with a mental illness and/or substance use disorder.&nbsp; You also have to have been in recovery for over two years (typically, this is shown by not being admitted to a hospital or rehab center for behavioral health issues, maintaining sobriety and wellness, and not being charged with a crime or serving jail time for two or more years).&nbsp; If a person meets these requirements, then they may go through specialized training in order to support individuals in the community that are currently struggling with mental illness and/or addiction.&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div>  <span class='imgPusher' style='float:left;height:0px'></span><span style='display: table;width:auto;position:relative;float:left;max-width:100%;;clear:left;margin-top:17px;*margin-top:34px'><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/we-don-t-develop-courage-by-being-happy-all-the-time.png?1686167304" style="margin-top: 5px; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; border-width:1px;padding:3px; max-width:100%" alt="Picture" class="galleryImageBorder wsite-image" /></a><span style="display: table-caption; caption-side: bottom; font-size: 90%; margin-top: -10px; margin-bottom: 10px; text-align: center;" class="wsite-caption"></span></span> <div class="paragraph" style="text-align:left;display:block;"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Peer support training includes suicide prevention, reducing access to lethal means, crisis intervention, ethics, and diversity and inclusion training, among other vital topics. The training may include learning how to do a "recovery talk", which is a way to discuss your own story in a cohesive and appropriate manner-- a difficult, but important skill as a peer support specialist. In Montana, peer support training must be at least forty hours and include an examination. After passing the exam and completing the training, peer support specialists go through a background check with the Department of Justice.&nbsp; If a peer support has a history of being involved in the justice system, there is an appeal process to demonstrate that a person has been successful in following through with probation and refraining from further involvement with the penal system.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span></div> <hr style="width:100%;clear:both;visibility:hidden;"></hr>  <div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">After this process, peer support specialists submit an application and fee to the state that they reside in.&nbsp; To maintain their certification in Montana, peer support specialists must complete 20 continuing education units per year, as well as having supervision from a licensed behavioral health professional (such as a licensed clinical social worker, licensed professional counselor, licensed addiction counselor, or psychologist).&nbsp; They are required to have one hour of supervision for every 20 hours of direct peer support work. They must also be aware of how to write appropriate documentation for each peer support session.&nbsp; Peer support specialists must uphold the code of ethics and refrain from unethical decisions when working with individuals in the community.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br />Here is a <a href="https://www.center4healthandsdc.orghttps://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/7/1/1/4/71142589/mha-uic-guide_to_peer_specialist_certification.pdf" target="_blank">link</a>&nbsp;to an infographic that takes a broader look at peer support across the nation, and contains information about Nationally Certified Peer Specialists (NCPSs).&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:left;">What's so special about peer support?</h2>  <span class='imgPusher' style='float:right;height:471px'></span><span style='display: table;width:auto;position:relative;float:right;max-width:100%;;clear:right;margin-top:20px;*margin-top:40px'><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/peer-support-2.png?1683589243" style="margin-top: 5px; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; border-width:1px;padding:3px; max-width:100%" alt="Picture" class="galleryImageBorder wsite-image" /></a><span style="display: table-caption; caption-side: bottom; font-size: 90%; margin-top: -10px; margin-bottom: 10px; text-align: center;" class="wsite-caption"></span></span> <div class="paragraph" style="text-align:left;display:block;">Sure, we have therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, and licensed addiction counselors-- so why add an extra person to the mix?&nbsp; Well, peer support is a wonderful addition to mental health and addiction treatment in many ways.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br /><strong>Peer support is a recovery and wellness-based profession</strong><strong>&#8203;.</strong>&nbsp;<br />What does <em>that</em> mean?&nbsp; Well, therapists, psychiatrists, etc. often use a medical or treatment-based model.&nbsp; They diagnose and treat mental illness, addiction, or co-occurring disorders.&nbsp; While this is highly useful and necessary for many individuals, peer support specialists take a different approach. Part of the work we do is telling our stories of recovery and what that means to us, which can communicate to those we work with that they are not alone, that others have some of the same experiences as them, and that there <em>is</em> hope.&nbsp; We see recovery as a process that is continual, because people should not feel as though something is inherently wrong with them that needs to be "cured".&nbsp; We work with wellness and recovery models to identify what motivates an individual and what areas of life that they need most support in to reach their goals.&nbsp; Then-- we give them support!&nbsp; We can also connect them to community resources, social programs, and other wraparound services.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br /><strong>Peer support provides additional social connection and support</strong><br />Many <a href="https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4295122/" target="_blank">studies</a> have shown that social isolation is a factor in addiction and choices that may negatively affect an individual's mental and physical health.&nbsp; This has been famously studied in rats, like in this <a href="https://nida.nih.gov/news-events/nida-notes/2019/08/rats-prefer-social-interaction-to-heroin-or-methamphetamine" target="_blank">study</a>&nbsp;where rats chose spending time with fellow rats over ingesting drugs such as methamphetamine and heroin.&nbsp; When individuals are given an option to engage in positive social connection, drug/alcohol abuse and self-destructive behaviors can be greatly reduced.&nbsp; This is where peer support specialists come in.&nbsp; Being a peer support doesn't require a fancy degree; it just requires being a person in recovery!&nbsp; Therefore, individuals at times may feel more comfortable spending time with a peer support specialist.&nbsp; They may be closer in age, socioeconomic status, gender, or education-level to their peer.&nbsp; This can foster authenticity, openness, and a positive connection.&nbsp; Sometimes, peer support specialists can even meet their peers in their communities, making peer support even more accessible and giving the peer a chance to be in a safe space, or take risks and go on a hike, to the gym, to coffee, or to other fun places!<br /><br /><strong>Peer support specialists can relate to individuals with behavioral health difficulties in a way that clinicians can't&nbsp;due to the nature of their jobs</strong><br />Although I am a peer support specialist, I am also working on my master's degree in counseling and expressive arts therapy.&nbsp; As a counselor, there are more limitations on what we can share with clients.&nbsp; Though much of the stigma has reduced in recent years, it is still somewhat stigmatized for therapists and counselors to have histories of mental illness and substance abuse.&nbsp; Some self-disclosure is okay, but the main focus of therapy is on the client and the treatment methods that will best help them!&nbsp; Though peer support specialists are coached to disclose in appropriate and positive ways, there is less restriction on self-disclosure, because disclosure is part of the profession! Though therapy, psychiatry, and addictions counseling are vital to the treatment process, peer supports simply have an advantage in this way.&nbsp; Peer supports can also model healthy self-disclosure, so that clients can learn how to share their own stories without affecting their relationships or their feelings of safety in a variety of settings.&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br /><strong>Peer support may be more culturally appropriate for some individuals</strong><br />Some individuals may have grown up in a culture that stigmatizes going to a therapist or psychiatrist.&nbsp; These individuals may feel more comfortable going to alternative professionals or traditional healers.&nbsp; Though peer support specialists are associated with the behavioral health profession, some individuals may feel more comfortable with a peer support specialist than a therapist due to the associated stigma of "needing therapy" or going to a "shrink".&nbsp; These individuals still deserve and need care, and it's possible that a peer support specialist with a similar background could reach them in a way that others cannot.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br />It is also important to note the diversity present in the peer support profession itself.&nbsp; As opposed to therapists, who, as a whole, are made up of 74% white individuals (<a href="https://www.zippia.com/mental-health-therapist-jobs/demographics/" target="_blank">Zippia, 2023</a>), peer support specialists in the US have slightly more diversity, being made up of 67% white individuals (<a href="https://www.zippia.com/peer-counselor-jobs/demographics/" target="_blank">Zippia, 2023</a>).&nbsp; This makes the peer support specialist profession actually MORE racially diverse than the United States as a whole (<a href="https://www.census.gov/quickfacts/fact/table/US/PST045222" target="_blank">~76% white</a>).&nbsp;<br /><br />As people of color are over-represented in areas such as incarceration, especially for substance-related crimes, (Black individuals represent up to <a href="https://www.usnews.com/news/best-states/articles/2021-10-13/report-highlights-staggering-racial-disparities-in-us-incarceration-rates" target="_blank">5 times</a> the amount of white individuals in jails and prisons, and more in some states), this number is significant.&nbsp; Studies have also shown that "<span style="color:rgb(0, 0, 0)">56% of state prisoners, 45% of federal prisoners, and 64% of jail inmates were determined to have a mental health problem" (<a href="https://psychnews.psychiatryonline.org/doi/full/10.1176/appi.pn.2020.10b29" target="_blank">Geller, 2020</a>).&nbsp; Therefore, because peer support specialists are more diverse, they can better serve the previously-incarcerated population and prevent recidivism by giving individuals culturally appropriate support and reducing the systemic barriers that prevent people of color from accessing care and funnel them back into the prison system.&nbsp;</span></div> <hr style="width:100%;clear:both;visibility:hidden;"></hr>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:left;"><font size="6">Barriers in the Peer Support Profession</font></h2>  <div class="paragraph"><strong>Organizational influences</strong><br />A <a href="https://www.madinamerica.com/2019/07/study-examines-barriers-peer-support/" target="_blank">study</a> noted that organizational influences can be a barrier to peer support.&nbsp; Organizations that are based on a more hierarchical structure, such as acute units that favor nurses and psychiatrists over mental health workers, tend to do more poorly in organizing and maintaining peer support specialists as part of their workforce.&nbsp; Organizations that fully accept the roles of peer supports as part of their system or peer-led organizations tend to function much better!&nbsp; (This is not to say that hierarchical organizations can't learn a thing or two!)<br /><br /><strong>Legislature</strong><br />In Montana, efforts to create a credentialing process (similar to a license) for peer support was <a href="https://apps.montanafreepress.org/capitol-tracker-2023/bills/sb-198/" target="_blank">tabled</a>.&nbsp; This is just one example of how progress in the peer support profession can be stalled or halted by legislative processes.&nbsp; Legislators may table bills for a number of reasons, including what they believe it will cost the state.&nbsp; Many peer support specialists are part of the advocacy process, down to drafting bills themselves!&nbsp; Reach out to your local behavioral health advisory committee or peer support committee for more information on this process.<br /><br /><strong>Role confusion</strong><br />An important part of the workplace is having a clearly defined role.&nbsp; Organizations that give peer support workers unclear instructions or overload them with responsibilities function poorly.&nbsp; Due the potentially distressing nature of their job, peer support specialists need jobs that have good work-life balances, that teach healthy boundaries, and that clearly state their roles and give them appropriate training.&nbsp; This includes training on patient confidentiality and appropriate disclosure<br /><br />&#8203;<strong>Working with others</strong><br />In larger organizations, some people are prejudiced towards peer support specialists (shown in this <a href="https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6494735/" target="_blank">study</a>), and therefore may be resistant to hiring them or working with them.&nbsp; That is why it is so important to teach about peer support so we can reduce stigma.&nbsp; Though we can't change everyone's minds, by creating a more well-informed public overall, we can influence policies and enact change.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br /><strong>Socioeconomic factors<br />&#8203;</strong>Some larger organizations may not pay peer support specialists as much as some might argue that they should get paid!&nbsp; In part, this is due to the fact that some states have restrictions on what type or organizations can hire and bill for peer support services.&nbsp; In Montana, mental health centers (MHCs), licensed substance use disorder clinics, Indian Health Services and other organizations listed <a href="https://dphhs.mt.gov/assets/MedicaidTribalConsultation/December2019/CertifiedPeerSupportServices.pdf" target="_blank">here</a> can bill for peer support through Medicaid.&nbsp; When searching for a job as a peer support specialist, make sure that you are satisfied with the pay you will be receiving.&nbsp; <span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">It is up to us to advocate for better pay as a whole!&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br /><br />Some peer support specialists, once certified, can work as independent contractors, and therefore may have some part in negotiating their own pay.&nbsp; However, know that you must have a supervisor either within that organization or on your own, as well as being able to complete the appropriate documentation, <em>and&nbsp;</em>regularly pay income taxes quarterly or annually.&nbsp; You must also have your own liability insurance.&nbsp; You may be required to license yourself as an LLC (which, depending on the state, is surprisingly affordable).&nbsp; If you want to pursue this path, do plenty of research, and be sure to have people on your side to help inform you about your financial and legal obligations!</div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title">Conclusion</h2>  <span class='imgPusher' style='float:left;height:63px'></span><span style='display: table;width:auto;position:relative;float:left;max-width:100%;;clear:left;margin-top:20px;*margin-top:40px'><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/untitled-design-2.png?1683826670" style="margin-top: 5px; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; border-width:1px;padding:3px; max-width:100%" alt="Picture" class="galleryImageBorder wsite-image" /></a><span style="display: table-caption; caption-side: bottom; font-size: 90%; margin-top: -10px; margin-bottom: 10px; text-align: center;" class="wsite-caption"></span></span> <div class="paragraph" style="text-align:left;display:block;">People with mental illness and substance use disorders so often face stigma and discrimination in the workplace.&nbsp; However, in the peer support profession, our experiences are actually appreciated and rewarded, and can be utilized to help others that are at different spots in their recovery or are in the same dark places that we've had to claw our way out of ourselves.&nbsp;<br /><br />Peer support specialists have amazing communities amongst themselves.&nbsp; In fact, I recently attended a webinar with Montana's Peer Network, made some new connections, and again got to be a part of the wonderful, vulnerable, and resilient spaces that peer support specialists create wherever they go!&nbsp;<br /><br />&#8203;If you have experienced mental illness, trauma, or addiction and are in a place of recovery (or are getting there!), I highly recommend thinking about becoming a peer support specialist.&nbsp; There are so many opportunities, and not just as a peer support!&nbsp; You can be a public speaker, a writer, an advocate, and a peer educator.&nbsp; There are endless possibilities!&nbsp; If you choose this path, you will meet some amazing people along the way, and have many opportunities to grow as a person and be exposed to a community filled with love, hope, and empowerment.&nbsp;&nbsp;</div> <hr style="width:100%;clear:both;visibility:hidden;"></hr>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[From Body Shame to Radical Body Acceptance]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/from-body-shame-to-radical-body-acceptance]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/from-body-shame-to-radical-body-acceptance#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Wed, 04 Jan 2023 18:00:32 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/from-body-shame-to-radical-body-acceptance</guid><description><![CDATA[My story of resilience, joy, and freedom.This post talks about eating disorders, dieting, suicidal ideation, and childhood trauma.&nbsp; If you are suffering from an eating disorder and need to talk to someone, contact the NEDA Helpline here, and if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts and need someone to talk to, dial 988 to reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.&nbsp;&nbsp;About six months ago, I was on the keto diet (again).&nbsp; I have always been&nbsp;very&nbsp;good at keepin [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="paragraph"><em>My story of resilience, joy, and freedom.</em></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)"><em>This post talks about eating disorders, dieting, suicidal ideation, and childhood trauma.&nbsp; If you are suffering from an eating disorder and need to talk to someone, contact the NEDA Helpline <a href="https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline" target="_blank">here,</a> and if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts and need someone to talk to, dial 988 to reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.&nbsp;&nbsp;</em><br><br>About six months ago, I was on the keto diet (again).&nbsp; I have always been&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">very</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;good at keeping to diets. Sometimes, I would reserve my minuscule carbohydrate allowance for a</span><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;treat-- one Hershey's kiss, a cracker, even a fruit (</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">how I missed apples!)</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">.&nbsp; Other times, I would be measuring out sour cream, choking down dry keto "bread", and eating spoonfuls of sugar-free peanut butter because I craved sugar and carbs so much.&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:49.6199032481%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">In the back of my mind, I was aware of the<br>fact that the keto diet wasn't advisable.&nbsp;However, if you look up "ketosis" on Google, the first thing you come across is how ketosis supposedly increases energy, treats chronic diseases, and, most importantly for me,&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">promotes weight loss</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">. I didn't care if those health benefit claims were actually true. I didn't care how else it might have affected my body, if only my body was smaller.&nbsp;</span>&#8203;&nbsp;But after the first ten pounds, I didn't see any difference.&nbsp; In the meanwhile, I was constantly limiting myself as to what I could eat, and if I messed up I would feel the familiar sting of guilt and shame.&nbsp;&nbsp;&#8203;<span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I felt like I was betraying the person that I wanted to be: model-thin, beautiful, happy</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">, finally</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">.&nbsp; I'd always struggled with how I looked, but I thought if I could just be skinny, I would&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">finally&nbsp;</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">be beautiful.</span></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50.3800967519%; padding:0 15px;"><blockquote style="text-align:left;"><font color="#3387A2" size="7">"I didn't care how else it might have affected my body, if only my body was smaller."</font></blockquote></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div><!--BLOG_SUMMARY_END--></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">At the same time, I was looking into fillers for my ever-present under eye hollows.&nbsp; I could finally afford it-- I had saved my tax return, more hefty than usual from being enrolled in grad school (thank you, Lifetime Learning Credit).&nbsp; This was something I'd only dreamed of as a teenager, the daughter of a single mother, always adorned as I was in secondhand clothing and cheap makeup.&nbsp; Breathlessly, I made the appointment.&nbsp; On the day of, I wore huge, dark sunglasses.&nbsp; I strolled into the glitzy waiting room, and waited. When I finally got into the chair, my heart was hammering.&nbsp; Then came the needles in my face... it wasn't a fun experience, to say the least.&nbsp; And afterwards, when I finally looked into the mirror-- I saw no difference. I still looked just as tired, just as "ugly".&nbsp; As I left, I heard someone at the front desk ask what I was in for, like we were in a women's prison.&nbsp; And my injector (<em>the traitor,</em>&#8203; I thought): "Oh, an eye thing."&nbsp; I walked through the pretentious front lobby and pushed through the double doors, tears stinging my eyes and blood rising in my cheeks.&nbsp; I felt ashamed, disappointed, and hopeless.&nbsp; If I couldn't be cured by fillers, what hope was there for me?&nbsp; When would I be beautiful?&nbsp; I remember sobbing into my mother's shoulder: "it wasn't enough. Nothing changed.&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Nothing changed.</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">"&nbsp;</span><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I didn't know it yet, but this was an extremely significant moment.&nbsp; Because, as I realized later on, nothing would <em>ever</em> have changed; the problem&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">wasn't me.&nbsp;&nbsp;</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&#8203;There was&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">never</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;anything wrong with me.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:35.756853396901%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0;margin-right:0;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/sammyjr.jpeg?1679419681" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:64.243146603099%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph">The real root of the problem started much, <em>much</em> earlier-- all the way back when I was five years old.&nbsp; Before then, I was your average, if not exceptionally bright little girl.&nbsp; I spoke in full, articulated sentences at three years old (I would often proclaim to strangers that I wanted to be a cardiologist when I grew up), learned to read early, loved painting and singing and running around in the incredible variety of flower girl dresses my mom got when her friend's bridal shop went out of business.&nbsp; I remember feeling like a fairy princess in them-- absolutely beautiful, special, and magical.&nbsp; I would run through the sunlight, my skin turning caramel under the warm sun. I would play in the mud, walk barefoot through the trees.&nbsp;</div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I felt as thought nothing could touch me, as if it were only a force of will that kept my feet from lifting from the ground. But somewhere along the line, that feeling disappeared.&nbsp; At some point, my body and everything about it became the enemy.&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">At just five years old, I experienced a traumatic event, or, rather, series of events.&nbsp; Suddenly, my body wasn't safe.&nbsp; I couldn't trust those close to me.&nbsp; I couldn't even trust myself.&nbsp; Somehow, I learned that what happened was shameful, and that I could never, <em>ever</em> speak of it.&nbsp; And, whether out of a need to soothe myself or a need to protect myself, I began to gain weight.&nbsp; To be quite honest, my memories of my childhood are hazy and difficult to retrieve.&nbsp; This isn't uncommon amongst trauma survivors-- memories can cause pain, so the brain protects itself by forgetting.&nbsp; I disconnected myself from the experiences of my body to survive; thus began my feelings of body dysmorphia.&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0;margin-right:0;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/sammyjr2.jpeg?1679419356" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I felt as though I had caused the trauma, simply by having a body; therefore, my body was wrong, and I was ashamed of it.&nbsp; At the same time, I began to form the rather conflicting idea that my body was only worthy if it was desirable to others.&nbsp; Altogether, it was a recipe for disaster.</span>&#8203;</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:36.891891891892%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0;margin-right:0;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/sammy-jr-3.jpg?1679420980" alt="Picture" style="width:287;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:63.108108108108%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph">It didn't help that I was short, and plump, and mixed-race, and stood out no matter what I tried to do, as smart and artistic as I was.&nbsp; At eleven years old, I started wearing makeup to conceal my "dark circles"-- common amongst those with olive skin tones and passed down by my Mexican grandmother.&nbsp; And at twelve years old, after a particularly brutal Health class where we were all forced to stand on a scale in front of all of our classmates, I decided I needed to lose weight.&nbsp; Luckily (or unluckily) for me, that very same Health class equipped me with calorie counting, BMIs, and nutrition facts: a host of weapons far too dangerous for a twelve year old to be armed with.&nbsp;<br>&#8203;<br>&#8203;<span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Every day I would keep track of what I ate.&nbsp; I could probably still tell you how many calories are in half a cup of cottage cheese, a slice of pizza, a serving size of cereal, you name it.&nbsp; I would have a liquid breakfast of SlimFast, half a turkey sandwich for lunch, and as little dinner as I could get away with.</span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I started skipping meals, relishing the weakness and the strung-out feeling-- evidence that I was, in fact, wasting away. And, as starving yourself sometimes does, it worked.&nbsp; I lost almost forty pounds in a few months.&nbsp;</span>&#8203;&#8203;</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:58.333333333333%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">If I was already thin, I would've been given a diagnosis: anorexia nervosa.&nbsp; Because I was fat, all I was given was a "congratulations".&nbsp;</span>By the time people noticed how skinny I was, the damage was already done.&nbsp; I had more friends, more attention, and more unwelcome (but flattering) crushes than I'd ever had before (that was, if I even realized that someone could possibly have a crush on me).&nbsp; But I wasn't happier-- once I became aware of how my body could be considered "wrong", I felt as though I were constantly under a magnifying glass.&nbsp;</div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:41.666666666667%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:10px;text-align:right"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/screen-shot-2023-03-20-at-2-37-00-pm.png?1679419820" alt="Picture" style="width:314;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:24.72049689441%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:50px;padding-bottom:0px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:right"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/editor/sammy-jr-4.jpeg?1679419397" alt="Picture" style="width:199;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:75.27950310559%; padding:0 15px;"><blockquote style="text-align:left;"><font size="7" style="" color="#3387A2">If I was already thin, I would've been given a diagnosis: anorexia nervosa.&nbsp; Because I was fat, all I was given was a "congratulations".</font></blockquote></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I battled every day to appear perfect.&nbsp; I spent every hour hating myself, and every break between classes fixing my makeup in the mirror and pinching what little fat was left on my body.&nbsp; I tried to look the way that society told me would make me happy, and&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">it didn't work</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">.</span></div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:25.013335037428%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0;margin-right:0;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/screen-shot-2023-02-16-at-4-18-34-pm.png?1679421389" alt="Picture" style="width:174;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:49.064618727262%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">This exhausting battle continued-- through high school, through college.&nbsp; I went on different diets, continued to be wary of calories, snacked on cucumbers instead of potato chips.&nbsp; But nothing worked like that first time.&nbsp; I'd lose weight, gain it back, plus some.&nbsp; I couldn't even accurately tell&nbsp;<em>how&nbsp;</em>I looked; my body image was so warped.&nbsp; Looking back on the many times that I thought I needed to lose weight, it seems almost insane to me.&nbsp; Whether I really had gained some weight, or had lost it, it didn't matter-- I was never satisfied.&nbsp;I was as unhappy with my body when walking ten miles a day across Spain as I was when I was emotionally eating and dealing with PTSD from yet <em>more</em> trauma that I experienced during college.</span></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:25.922046235311%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:0px;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/screen-shot-2023-03-20-at-2-12-56-pm.png?1679421408" alt="Picture" style="width:194;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I tried to process my trauma, to heal, but there was always something that held me back, something that kept me from fully absorbing the lessons I learned from school or from my therapists. That something was my complete refusal to accept my body, the one thing I relied on completely to survive.&nbsp;&nbsp;&#8203;&#8203;</span></div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:30.870083432658%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0;margin-right:0;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/sammy-jr-5.png?1679421453" alt="Picture" style="width:240;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:69.129916567342%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph">It got to the point where I was at my lowest weight in years. It was after I had graduated from college and was working at an acute treatment center.&nbsp; I had decided to try "intermittent fasting" (for someone with an eating disorder, an excuse to not eat for as long as humanly possible).&nbsp; I was 117 pounds, but I wanted more. I wanted to be 110 pounds, 100 pounds, 90 pounds.&nbsp; Nothing was ever enough.&nbsp; Honestly, I was a hypocrite-- trying to get anorexic youth at the treatment center to drink another Ensure to get their calorie count up, while I drank black coffee with Splenda.&nbsp; It was at that time that I ended up in the hospital for severe suicidal ideation.&nbsp; I cannot adequately explain the fear I felt that I was going to get admitted to the very treatment center that I worked at.&nbsp; They took everything I had, put me in a hospital gown, and knocked me out with medication.&nbsp;&nbsp;</div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">In the morning, the psychiatrist subtly blamed me for being honest about my suicidal thoughts, diagnosed me with adjustment disorder, and sent me back out into the world.&nbsp; I moved towns to be closer to my family, and my eating disorder got under control, but only just.&nbsp; I went to a few different therapists, but nothing really fit.&nbsp; I talked about my trauma, worked out a million ways to interpret it, and tried not to blame myself for what had happened to me.&nbsp; I got better, but I was still just <em>existing;</em> I wasn't really <em>living</em>&#8203;.&nbsp; <em>And</em>&nbsp;I was <em>still dieting.</em>&#8203;</span>&#8203;</div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">This continued until I got an assignment from my job at Healing Mountain Mental Health to create a group therapy curriculum for people living in larger bodies that struggled with childhood trauma.&nbsp; I tasked myself with the question: why do people with childhood trauma gain weight?&nbsp; Well, weight gain extremely common amongst survivors.&nbsp; They are much more likely to become "obese", as well as suffer from many other related mental and physical illnesses.&nbsp; Survivors of childhood sexual trauma often gain the weight as a survival instinct, to protect themselves from further abuse by becoming what they consider "undesirable".&nbsp; Food is also a source of comfort and distraction from unwelcome thoughts and emotions, and can fill gaps caused by loneliness, identity confusion, and depression. But how could we guide individuals in building healthy habits and possibly losing weight in a healthy way?</span><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;Well, I had absolutely no idea.&nbsp; I'd <em>never</em> lost weight in a healthy way.&nbsp; &nbsp;So, I started doing some research.&nbsp;</span></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">The results were earth-shattering: there is no true "healthy" diet, because, around&nbsp;</span><a href="https://slate.com/technology/2015/03/diets-do-not-work-the-thin-evidence-that-losing-weight-makes-you-healthier.html#:~:text=In%20reality%2C%2097%20percent%20of,and%20downright%20deceptive%20at%20worst." target="_blank">97% of the time,&nbsp;</a><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)"><a href="https://slate.com/technology/2015/03/diets-do-not-work-the-thin-evidence-that-losing-weight-makes-you-healthier.html#:~:text=In%20reality%2C%2097%20percent%20of,and%20downright%20deceptive%20at%20worst." target="_blank">diets don't work</a>.&nbsp;&nbsp;</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">They might work in the short term, but in the long run-- the thing that actually matters-- the weight doesn't usually stay off.&nbsp; More often than not,&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">more</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;weight gain is the likeliest scenario. The cause for this is rooted in our basic biological functions: the ones that have kept humans alive for thousands of years.&nbsp; When we try and cut calories to lose weight, it signals to our body that we are in a period of famine.&nbsp; Our metabolism slows, along with our bodily functions, in order to preserve energy.&nbsp; If the calorie deficit is enough, fat and water weight loss (and sometimes muscle loss) may ensue.&nbsp; However, the more we restrict, the more our body craves high carbohydrate and fatty foods.&nbsp; As a result, most people stop dieting, and, of course, gain the weight back, sometimes plus some as their bodies get ready for the next bout of "famine".&nbsp; Our bodies don't know that there's an abundance of food, or that McDonald's is just a couple blocks away; it just knows that it needs to send signals for us to store as much energy as it can before the food goes away again.&nbsp; (For reference, watch&nbsp;</span><a href="https://www.ted.com/talks/sandra_aamodt_why_dieting_doesn_t_usually_work?language=en" target="_blank">this TED Talk</a><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;from neuroscientist Sandra Aamodt).<br>&#8203;<br>&#8203;The more I read, the more baffled I became.&nbsp; I read about how the diet industry is fueled by the constant rebounding and desperation of the general population.&nbsp; I read about the distribution of deliberate misinformation on diets like the keto diet and other fad diets.&nbsp;<br><br>&#8203;I watched&nbsp;</span><a href="https://www.google.com/search?q=the+biggest+loser+study+research&amp;rlz=1C5CHFA_enUS987US987&amp;sxsrf=AJOqlzVHVW7ozw6KXzQjRWPZVg2Fzg88dg:1679002394277&amp;source=lnms&amp;tbm=vid&amp;sa=X&amp;ved=2ahUKEwi7sqaqs-H9AhXHBzQIHfkeBSkQ_AUoA3oECAEQBQ&amp;biw=1398&amp;bih=735&amp;dpr=2#fpstate=ive&amp;vld=cid:42866422,vid:9gPiS2xsF-E" target="_blank">news clips</a><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;about a study on the Biggest Loser and how the show's claim to fame-- extreme weight loss-- was a lie.&nbsp; The show itself was stigmatizing, emotionally abusive, and physically damaging, causing people to pass out, vomit, and become severely dehydrated.&nbsp; Once they left, contestants struggled to keep the weight off, to the point that they had to exercise 2 hours a day and eat less than 1200 calories just to slow the weight gain down.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I read about weight discrimination, and how individuals in larger bodies are&nbsp;</span><a href="https://www.theguardian.com/money/us-money-blog/2014/oct/30/women-pay-get-thin-study" target="_blank">paid less</a><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">,&nbsp;</span><a href="https://slate.com/human-interest/2013/01/no-justice-for-fat-women-male-jurors-more-likely-to-find-obese-women-guilty.html" target="_blank">more likely to be convicted in a court of law</a><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">, and suffer a host of other horrible injustices.&nbsp; I started hearing microaggressions and microinsults being thrown out towards people in larger bodies as casually as saying "bless you" when someone sneezes.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br><br><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">A <a href="https://www.jabfm.org/content/jabfp/25/1/9.full.pdf" target="_blank">2012 study</a> also showed that obesity and weight gain aren't necessarily predictors of mortality.&nbsp; In the study, by adding only four healthy habits-- drinking in moderation, not smoking, eating healthy, and exercising-- the risk of death of an "obese" person became almost exactly the same as someone who is considered to have a "normal" BMI.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br>&#8203;<br>All of this made me, for lack of a better word, <em>angry</em>.&nbsp; I was angry at myself. I was angry because I realized that I was never going to look like a model; I would never be as petite as Zoe Kravitz.&nbsp; I was never going to meet my own standards for how I thought I should look.&nbsp; And I was angry because I was so blinded by society's standards that I thought that <em>that&nbsp;</em>was the <em>only</em> acceptable way to look.&nbsp; That I had to be at a weight that is only achievable if I'm weak, tired, and&nbsp;<em>starving</em>.&nbsp; And that so many people, especially women but also people of all genders, are expected to&nbsp;<em>starve themselves to be acceptable, lovable, and worthy.&nbsp;</em> Angry isn't really the right word.&nbsp; I was <em>livid</em>.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:47.518610421836%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph" style="text-align:left;"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">After I calmed down a bit, I started discovering amazing things:&nbsp;</span><a href="http://intuitiveeating.org/10-principles-of-intuitive-eating/" target="_blank">Intuitive Eating</a><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">,&nbsp;</span><a href="https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/size-diversity-health-every-size" target="_blank">Health At Every Size</a><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">, the <a href="https://thebodypositive.org/" target="_blank">body positivity</a> and <a href="https://naafa.org/" target="_blank">fat acceptance</a> movements.&nbsp; I discovered the ideas I was indoctrinated with at such a young age had a name: fatphobia.&nbsp; I was hugely prejudiced, which came as a shock, as I'd always considered myself to be open-minded. I knew I struggled from body dysmorphia, but until then I thought it was justified.&nbsp; But I finally realized: my body is&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">just&nbsp;</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">a body.&nbsp;It had always deserved safety, protection, love, and care.&nbsp;<br>The thing was, once I realized this, it became much easier to take care of my body, to feed it healthy foods, to engage in movement.&nbsp; I signed up for a karate class, hiked with my dogs, actually&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">enjoyed</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;doing push-ups and crunches. Everything was easier because I could finally enjoy feeling stronger and healthier without the guilt of whatever number I saw on the scale. I could listen to my body when it craved vegetables and fruits, and not feel bad if sometimes it craved Ruffles or cookies. I was finally ditching shame: even better, I was kicking shame's a**.</span></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:52.481389578164%; padding:0 15px;"><blockquote style="text-align:left;"><font color="#3387A2" size="7">But I finally realized: my body is&nbsp;<em>just&nbsp;</em>a body.&nbsp;It had always deserved safety, protection, love, and care.</font></blockquote></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">That brings us to that elusive ~3% of people who actually lose weight and keep it off.&nbsp; It turns out, those people are the ones who do just that-- they find&nbsp;<em>joy</em>&nbsp;in healthy eating and movement.&nbsp; They also score high on measures of "intuitive eating"-- essentially, eating when they are hungry and stopping when they are full, and eating a wide variety of foods and nutrients.&nbsp; I had lost touch with my body in the pursuit of weight loss, in the pursuit of what I thought would make me happy and worthy; in the process, I was actively working against what I wanted.&nbsp; And I was so sorry.<br><br>&#8203;I was sorry to the five-year old girl whose bodily rights had been violated, and to the twelve year old who was starving herself, and the high school girl who felt pressured and the 18-year old college student who should have found her voice living in the big city but couldn't.&nbsp; &#8203;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;</em>I felt the need to apologize to all the versions of myself I'd been before that still wept and cowered in my heart.&nbsp; But the only way I could do that would be to break free of the the vice grip of diet culture, to relinquish the image of a body that I would never and could never have, and to learn to love the body I did have.&nbsp;<em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;</em><br></div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:59.428571428571%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">I felt most sorry for the three year old girl, the one that came&nbsp;</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">before</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">, the one that felt like she could fly to the moon and back on daydreams alone.&nbsp; But she was still, and had always been, with me.&nbsp; &#8203;She was there every time I laughed with abandon, every time I sang from my chest, looked up at the stars in awe, put paint onto a canvas, danced just for the wonder of it.&nbsp; The magic that I felt when I was a child was real, and it was joy.&nbsp; I was always looking for happiness in being less that what I was, as if I could shed sorrow, despair, and pain along with the pounds.&nbsp; But as long as I was trying to be someone that didn't exist, I would never be free. The pursuit of joy&nbsp;isn't about becoming the people we want to be, not really.&nbsp; If you start going down that path, when will it end?&nbsp; For me, the path was never-ending, and all-consuming.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:40.571428571429%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0;margin-right:0;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/screenshot-20230316-154147-instagram.jpg?1686849625" alt="Picture" style="width:283;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">True joy,&nbsp;<em>true&nbsp;</em>freedom&nbsp;is about allowing ourselves to be the people we are, accepting ourselves at our <em>core</em>.&nbsp; It is about being vulnerable, honest, and authentic. The more we strive to be ourselves, the higher we rise, and the more we realize that we were perfect, all along.&nbsp;</span><br><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&#8203;</span></div><div class="wsite-spacer" style="height:50px;"></div><h2 class="wsite-content-title">Learn more&nbsp;</h2><div class="paragraph"><strong>Read</strong><br><a href="http://www.intuitiveeating.org/" target="_blank">Intuitive Eating</a> by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch<br><a href="https://www.amazon.com/Big-Girl-Gave-Dieting-Life/dp/1455532630" target="_blank">Big Girl: How I Gave Up Dieting and Got a Life</a> by Kelsey Miller<br><a href="https://www.amazon.com/Health-At-Every-Size-Surprising/dp/1935618253/ref=asc_df_1935618253/?tag=hyprod-20&amp;linkCode=df0&amp;hvadid=353874173411&amp;hvpos=&amp;hvnetw=g&amp;hvrand=7510725997705904445&amp;hvpone=&amp;hvptwo=&amp;hvqmt=&amp;hvdev=c&amp;hvdvcmdl=&amp;hvlocint=&amp;hvlocphy=9021299&amp;hvtargid=pla-417335657418&amp;psc=1&amp;tag=&amp;ref=&amp;adgrpid=71634025176&amp;hvpone=&amp;hvptwo=&amp;hvadid=353874173411&amp;hvpos=&amp;hvnetw=g&amp;hvrand=7510725997705904445&amp;hvqmt=&amp;hvdev=c&amp;hvdvcmdl=&amp;hvlocint=&amp;hvlocphy=9021299&amp;hvtargid=pla-417335657418" target="_blank">Health At Every Size: The Surprising Truth About Your Weight</a> by Lindo Bacon<br><a href="https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/the-anti-diet-project" target="_blank">The Anti-Diet Project</a> by Kelsey Miller (Refinery29)<br><br><strong>Watch</strong><br><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jn0Ygp7pMbA&amp;ab_channel=TED" target="_blank">Why Dieting Doesn't Usually Work</a> -&nbsp;Sandra Aamodt (TEDx)<br><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xW7PQfZ_qos&amp;ab_channel=TheBodyLoveSociety" target="_blank">Behind the Before and After: Non Diet, Intuitive Eating and Body Image Documentary</a>&nbsp;- The Body Love Society (YouTube)<br><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9gPiS2xsF-E&amp;ab_channel=ABCNews" target="_blank">Why Biggest Loser Winners Often Regain Weight</a> - ABC News (YouTube)<br><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8so1WZ4j1oQ&amp;t=770s&amp;ab_channel=TEDxTalks" target="_blank">The Exercise Happiness Project</a> - Chris Wharton (TEDx)<br><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3__CcskNkDs&amp;ab_channel=TEDxTalks" target="_blank">How To Get Healthy Without Dieting</a> - Darya Rose (TEDx)<br><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DoDzwM0gybg&amp;ab_channel=TEDxTalks" target="_blank">Our Bodies are Not an Image</a> | Mary Jelkovsky | TEDxCherryCreekWomen<br><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaXBYcfVYZM&amp;t=7s&amp;ab_channel=TEDxTalks" target="_blank">Living without shame: How we can empower ourselves</a> | Whitney Thore | TEDxGreensboro<br>&#8203;</div><div><div id="239325170727605174" align="left" style="width: 100%; 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However, we believe it's vitally important to include-- here's why.As a mixed race Chippewa-Cree (Nehiyawahk)&nbsp;and Latinx woman, there have been many ways in which I have fought off the erasure of my own identity.&nbsp;&nbsp;​This identity tug-of-war is a tool of colonialism, that insidious force that is still trying first and foremost to eradicate Native peoples and turn us against each [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="paragraph">By Sam Martin</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0;margin-right:0;text-align:center"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/two-spirit_orig.webp" alt="Picture" style="width:auto;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%"></div></div></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Upon reading our mission statement, you might be confused by the "2S" in LGBTQIA2S+.&nbsp; However, we believe it's vitally important to include-- here's why.</span><br><br><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">As a mixed race Chippewa-Cree (</span><em style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Nehiyawahk)&nbsp;</em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">and Latinx woman, there have been many ways in which I have fought off the erasure of my own identity.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div><!--BLOG_SUMMARY_END--></div><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">This identity tug-of-war is a tool of colonialism, that insidious force that is still trying first and foremost to eradicate Native peoples and turn us against each other.&nbsp; That is why we are given "blood quantum", a percentage of "Indian" blood, like prize dogs in a competition.&nbsp; Many individuals anecdotally state that the so-called "percentage" is purposefully miscalculated to prevent Native people and their children from getting enrolled in their tribe, so that their children's identities are forgotten and lost to time.&nbsp; It is a bureaucratic extermination: less paperwork, less benefits to give to those in need, less justice to be paid.&nbsp; Less people to carry on the cultures and ways of life that directly oppose capitalism, the ownership of land, and the destruction of nature.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><a href="https://www.voanews.com/a/usa_some-native-americans-fear-blood-quantum-formula-paper-genocide/6208615.html" target="_blank">Some call it a "paper genocide"</a><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">-- a way to reduce the number of enrolled individuals in a tribal nation, until, eventually, it dies out.</span><br>&#8203;</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:68.835616438356%; padding:0 15px;"><div><div class="wsite-image wsite-image-border-none" style="padding-top:10px;padding-bottom:10px;margin-left:0px;margin-right:10px;text-align:right"><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/decolonize.jpeg?1680195555" alt="Picture" style="width:549;max-width:100%"></a><div style="display:block;font-size:90%">Source: https://peoplesforum.org/events/resist-and-decolonize-through-culture/</div></div></div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:31.164383561644%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Historically, there have been many ways that colonist culture has tried to exterminate Native culture and lives.&nbsp; There were some more obvious attempts, such as the Trail of Tears and the Wounded Knee Massacre. There was the deliberate infection of smallpox, which killed as many as&nbsp;</span><a href="https://www.notesfromthefrontier.com/post/smallpox-the-deadliest-killer-of-native-americans#:~:text=It%20resulted%20in%20a%20genocide,from%20land%20desired%20by%20settlers." target="_blank">500,000 indigenous people</a><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">.</span></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><div class="paragraph">Then there were "Indian" boarding schools, when young Native children were forced to attend Christian schools and stripped of their culture: their long hair cropped short, their languages and traditional ways of knowing banned, and their will destroyed through physical, sexual, and emotional abuse that occurred very often in these institutions, sometimes resulting in death.&nbsp; All of these deliberate and horrific acts of what can only be described as human rights violations and war crimes resulted in something known as intergenerational trauma, which is a phenomenon in which<a href="https://amber-ic.org/wp-content/uploads/2017/01/ICMN-All-About-Generations-Trauma.pdf" target="_blank">trauma mutates the genes</a>, which is passed down through generations, increasing the likelihood for many diseases and mental illnesses.&nbsp; This accounts for the major health disparities that are seen in tribal populations.<br><br>This is why there must be visibility-- because visibility forces people to bear witness and hold accountable those that would continue to silently kill off our people and culture.&nbsp; Visibility can be promoted through the use of the term BIPOC (black and indigenous people of color), representation in media and mainstream culture, promotion of indigenous artwork (film, poetry, visual arts, music), diversity and inclusion training in healthcare and mental healthcare, the <a href="https://native-land.ca/" target="_blank">acknowledgement of occupation of Native lands</a> (for example, in Helena, MT, we are occupying Salish and&nbsp;Blackfoot / Niits&iacute;tapi &#5561;&#5151;&#5287;&#5159;&#5283;&#5231; land), the de-exoticization of Native cultures, and the inclusion of the "2S" in LGBTQIA2S+.</div><div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"><table class="wsite-multicol-table"><tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"><tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:37.485714285714%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">So, what does the "2S" stand for?&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Today, many conservative mouthpieces and social media "news" sources claim that there has been an uptick in individuals that identify as transgender, nonbinary, or genderqueer, framing it as a "fad". However, in many tribal cultures and in cultures throughout the world, <strong>there has&nbsp;<em>always</em>&nbsp;been the concept of transcending the gender binary.</strong> (See the story of <a href="https://www.womenshistory.org/education-resources/biographies/wewha" target="_blank">We'Wha</a> on the National Women's History Museum website).</span>&#8203;</div></td><td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:62.514285714286%; padding:0 15px;"><div class="wsite-youtube" style="margin-bottom:10px;margin-top:10px;"><div class="wsite-youtube-wrapper wsite-youtube-size-auto wsite-youtube-align-center"><div class="wsite-youtube-container"><iframe src="//www.youtube.com/embed/A4lBibGzUnE?wmode=opaque" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe></div></div></div></td></tr></tbody></table></div></div></div><span class='imgPusher' style='float:left;height:134px'></span><span style='display: table;width:auto;position:relative;float:left;max-width:100%;;clear:left;margin-top:20px;*margin-top:40px'><a><img src="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/uploads/1/2/9/0/129056823/published/wewha.png?1680195699" style="margin-top: 5px; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 10px; border-width:1px;padding:3px; max-width:100%" alt="Picture" class="galleryImageBorder wsite-image"></a><span style="display: table-caption; caption-side: bottom; font-size: 90%; margin-top: -10px; margin-bottom: 10px; text-align: center;" class="wsite-caption">We'Wha (1849-1896) Source: https://glreview.org/article/sex-and-gender-in-native-america/</span></span><div class="paragraph" style="display:block;"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;<a href="https://indiancountrytoday.com/archive/8-misconceptions-things-know-two-spirit-people" target="_blank">The term "two-spirit" was coined in 1989, an umbrella term derived from the Ojibwe "</a></span><em style="color:rgb(51, 51, 51)"><a href="https://indiancountrytoday.com/archive/8-misconceptions-things-know-two-spirit-people" target="_blank">Niizh Manidoowag"</a></em><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&nbsp;</span><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">that describes Native peoples that were blessed by the Creator with two spirits (i.e. 2S), a male and a female.&nbsp; It has since come to be adopted by people of many tribal cultures who were born into bodies that contain both of these spirits.&nbsp; Two-spirits are distinguished from other labels specified in LGBTQIA, though they may also identify themselves with more than one label.&nbsp; Two-spirit people are believed to be born with a special medicine and the innate ability to bring balance.&nbsp; In their respective tribes, many two-spirit people are tasked with&nbsp;<a href="https://indiancountrytoday.com/archive/8-misconceptions-things-know-two-spirit-people" target="_blank">restoring this balance with prayer and other duties</a>, something that is desperately needed in today's off-kilter world.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br><br>Two-spirit people suffer from a double cultural erasure.&nbsp; They experience the cultural genocide of indigenous peoples, as well as the historical and continuous attempt to kill off the ways of the two-spirit people due to the Eurocentric prejudices towards gender-nonconforming individuals.&nbsp; We live on Native land--&nbsp;<em>therefore</em>&nbsp;Native people need to be included in&nbsp;<em>all</em>&nbsp;discussions of American history and the current socio-political climate-- including in the LGBTQIA2S+ community.&nbsp; By limiting this discussion only to discussion of Native people, it reinforces the idea of the "other"-- that Native issues are not "American" issues.&nbsp; However, visibility is key to changing the trajectory of indigenous people in America.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span></div><hr style="width:100%;clear:both;visibility:hidden;"><div><div id="888969659545953135" align="left" style="width: 100%; overflow-y: hidden;" class="wcustomhtml"><div class="fb-like" data-href="https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/why-we-put-the-2-in-lgbtqia2-fighting-the-erasure-of-indigenous-culture" data-width="" data-layout="" data-action="" data-size="" data-share="true"></div></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Our Favorite Mental Health Apps-- And Why We Love Them!]]></title><link><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/our-favorite-mental-health-apps-and-why-we-love-them]]></link><comments><![CDATA[https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/our-favorite-mental-health-apps-and-why-we-love-them#comments]]></comments><pubDate>Tue, 09 Aug 2022 21:01:29 GMT</pubDate><category><![CDATA[Uncategorized]]></category><guid isPermaLink="false">https://www.healingmountainmentalhealth.com/healingmountainblog/our-favorite-mental-health-apps-and-why-we-love-them</guid><description><![CDATA[(Disclaimer: these apps are not meant to replace therapy with a licensed clinician, treatment for severe mental illnesses, or for medical or mental health emergencies).These days, we are always glued to our phones-- reposting memes, doomscrolling on TikTok, making our self esteem worse by comparing ourselves to Instagram models, saving hundreds of recipes on Pinterest that we'll never cook, and reading depressing news stories.&nbsp; So, how do we use our distraction cubes to actually&nbsp;better [...] ]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">(Disclaimer: these apps are not meant to replace therapy with a licensed clinician, treatment for severe mental illnesses, or for medical or mental health emergencies).</span><br /><br />These days, we are always glued to our phones-- reposting memes, doomscrolling on TikTok, making our self esteem worse by comparing ourselves to Instagram models, saving hundreds of recipes on Pinterest that we'll never cook, and reading depressing news stories.&nbsp; So, how do we use our distraction cubes to actually&nbsp;<em>better</em>&nbsp;ourselves and improve our lives?&nbsp; Luckily, some amazing humans out in the world have created apps with your mental and physical health in mind!<br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">We found some of them-- and tested them for you!&nbsp; Here are our favorites:</span><br /><br /></div>  <div>  <!--BLOG_SUMMARY_END--></div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;">Best Self Care App</h2>  <div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"> 	<table class="wsite-multicol-table"> 		<tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"> 			<tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"> 				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:48.513513513514%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div><div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div> <div id='291482421989003652-slideshow'></div> <div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div></div>   					 				</td>				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:51.486486486486%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div class="paragraph"><br /><font size="7"><strong>The Finch App</strong></font><br /><br /><font size="3">&#8203;<a href="https://finchcare.com/" target="_blank">Finch</a> is a self-care app... but make it fun!&nbsp; You get to raise an adorable little pet and choose its name and pronouns (mine is Mochi, she/her/hers). By completing goals, reflections, breathing exercises, stretches, acts of kindness, and physical exercises, you get energy for your pet to go on adventures.&nbsp; You also get "rainbow stones" that you can buy clothes with or decorate your finch's home.&nbsp;</font></div>   					 				</td>			</tr> 		</tbody> 	</table> </div></div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">You can choose specific journeys, such as "build confidence", and use its pre-written daily, weekly, or monthly goals, such as writing an affirmation for yourself every day.&nbsp; If you don't like them, no worries!&nbsp; You can create your own.&nbsp; It also has a social feature to invite your friends to your forest, OR you can input someone in that you want in your thoughts that isn't on the app at all.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&#8203;The app has built in breathing exercises, grounding exercises, and stretching and physical exercise videos to help you with your self care goals.&nbsp; You can write "reflections", which can help you to process your emotions throughout the day.&nbsp; It also has a very sweet feature-- "acts of kindness" goals, and you can earn rainbow stones from paying for another person's coffee, leaving a kind note on a strangers car, and other little acts of kindness that bring joy to those around you.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">It includes quizzes where you can test your anxiety, depression, pessimism, gratitude, sleepiness, and body appreciation, so you can understand more about yourself and what most needs improvement.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&#8203;</span><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">There is both a free and paid version.&nbsp; (I ended up liking it so much that I paid the $30 for the year.&nbsp; It's usually $40, but when I put "it's too expensive" as a reason not to purchase it, it knocked it down by $10!)</span><br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Altogether, it's really worth a try if you're looking to improve your self-care (and self-love!)</span></div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;">Best Focus App</h2>  <div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"> 	<table class="wsite-multicol-table"> 		<tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"> 			<tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"> 				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div><div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div> <div id='171465371373076338-slideshow'></div> <div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div></div>   					 				</td>				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div class="paragraph"><strong><font size="6">Focus Plant<br />&#8203;</font></strong><br /><font size="3">Fellow neurodivergents-- we've found the app for you!&nbsp; I'm sure a lot of us ADHDer's have tried the Pomodoro method.&nbsp; If you don't know, the Pomodoro method involves setting 25 minute timers to get homework, work, cleaning, or whatever you're struggling to focus on done, with five minute breaks in between.&nbsp; They call these intervals "pomodoros".&nbsp;</font><br /><br /></div>   					 				</td>			</tr> 		</tbody> 	</table> </div></div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><font style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Focus Plant relies on the same concept, except it uses cute plants as motivation.&nbsp; The longer you set the timer to focus, the more "raindrops" you get to plant new plants and water them with-- and the higher the level they become.&nbsp; You collect little dinosaur gardeners that you can level up, which raises the amount of raindrops you can receive for each focus session.&nbsp;&nbsp;</font><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">There's also a social feature, where you can join or make a group and plant trees.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br /><br /><font style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Altogether, we think it's adorable, fun, and makes focusing a breeze.&nbsp; It's super motivating to see the raindrops add up, discover new worlds, acquire new gardeners, and collect all those weird little plants.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br />Find it on <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.shikudo.focus.google&amp;hl=en_US&amp;gl=US" target="_blank">Google Play</a> and <a href="https://apps.apple.com/us/app/focus-plant-pomodoro-timer/id1459096306" target="_blank">iOS</a>.&nbsp;&nbsp;</font>&#8203;<br /></div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;">Best Healthy Habits App</h2>  <div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"> 	<table class="wsite-multicol-table"> 		<tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"> 			<tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"> 				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div><div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div> <div id='390226958752097348-slideshow'></div> <div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div></div>   					 				</td>				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div class="paragraph"><strong><font size="6">Fresh Tri</font></strong><br /><br /><font size="3"><a href="https://freshtri.com/" target="_blank">Fresh Tri</a> is wayyy better than a weight loss app.&nbsp; This is an app for both your physical and mental health.&nbsp;<br /><br />Fresh Tri encourages you to develop healthy habits with an iterative mindset-- meaning you keep trying things out, seeing what works for you, and making a habit of the things that improve your health and make you feel energetic and happy.&nbsp;</font></div>   					 				</td>			</tr> 		</tbody> 	</table> </div></div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">It doesn't push you to suddenly start doing CrossFit or go on a juice cleanse.&nbsp; Instead, it recognizes that habits are formed little by little.&nbsp; By taking on what you can handle, even if it's just doing five pushups or eating one fruit a day, or even mental health habits such as "avoid negatively labeling [yourself]", you can start yourself on a much longer, much more lasting journey to health and self-discovery.&nbsp;<br /><br />It also allows you to share your daily intentions or gratitude and send and receive anonymous virtual cards from other members of the Tri(be), which can help you feel validated and supported.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">&#8203;The most important thing that Fresh Tri does (in our opinion) is take the shame out of wanting to become healthy.&nbsp; Bye, fatphobia and unrealistic body standards! Hello body appreciation and self-love.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;">Best CBT App</h2>  <div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"> 	<table class="wsite-multicol-table"> 		<tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"> 			<tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"> 				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div><div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div> <div id='910000347877406911-slideshow'></div> <div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div></div>   					 				</td>				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div class="paragraph"><strong><font size="6">CBT Companion<br />&#8203;</font></strong><br /><font size="3">If you've ever gone to therapy (which, if you're reading a blog on a therapy website, we're sort of assuming you have), you might know about CBT, or "cognitive behavioral therapy".&nbsp; Cognitive behavioral therapy involves identifying thought patterns that are distorted, or not quite on par with reality.&nbsp; Think: "nobody loves me", "my life is a joke", "I can't do anything right"-- you know, normal stuff.&nbsp;&nbsp;</font></div>   					 				</td>			</tr> 		</tbody> 	</table> </div></div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><font style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">CBT helps you recognize that these thoughts aren't completely true, and sometimes they're just <em>utter</em> nonsense.&nbsp; With CBT, you gain awareness of your "cognitive distortions", and use specific methods to re-work them into something that's more realistic and more self-compassionate.&nbsp;&nbsp;<br /><br />CBT is a great form of therapy-- but it's easy to get caught up in the chaos of daily life and forget how to decode your thoughts. We can't carry around our therapist in our pocket, but we almost always have our phones! That's why we like CBT Companion.&nbsp; With the free version, you can use their "challenge your automatic thought" tool to write down your negative thought, identify the cognitive distortion, and challenge it.&nbsp; It also has useful tools like a journal to record your day-to-day emotions, moods, and thoughts.&nbsp; &nbsp;It has mindfulness tools, breathing exercises, a sleeping log, and plenty of educational videos if you want to learn more about CBT.&nbsp; It also has "SMART" goal building, which is a method to make specific, achievable goals.</font><br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Add it to your home page if CBT is something that works with you-- or talk to your therapist about trying it if you haven't yet!&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br /><br />Check it out for <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=co.swasth.cbtcompanion&amp;hl=en_US&amp;gl=US" target="_blank">Android</a> and <a href="https://apps.apple.com/us/app/cbt-companion-therapy-app/id1445499245" target="_blank">iPhone</a>.&#8203;</div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;">Best Overall Mental Health App</h2>  <div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"> 	<table class="wsite-multicol-table"> 		<tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"> 			<tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"> 				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div><div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div> <div id='703853216360121111-slideshow'></div> <div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div></div>   					 				</td>				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div class="paragraph"><strong><font size="6">My Possible Self</font></strong><br /><br /><font size="3"><a href="https://www.mypossibleself.com/" target="_blank">My Possible Self</a>&nbsp;is definitely one of the best free mental health apps out there.&nbsp; So many of us these days are struggling financially due to COVID.&nbsp; Why add another subscription to the list?&nbsp; Developed in the UK (come on, we know other countries have better healthcare systems, we're not surprised) and funded by Priory Healthcare, My Possible Self offers a wide range of mental health tools at the low cost of zero dollars.&nbsp; &nbsp;</font></div>   					 				</td>			</tr> 		</tbody> 	</table> </div></div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">My Possible Self is sort of an all-in-one, with a mood tracker, podcasts, journal, logs for sleep, drinks, and food, mindfulness audios/videos, articles, physical exercise and yoga/stretching videos, recipes, quizzes,&nbsp; therapeutic tools for anxiety, depression, and alcohol use, breathing tools, and guided series like "overcoming your anxiety".&nbsp; If you need help holding yourself accountable, it includes a "risky places" feature, which will monitor if you're close to a place that will trigger drinking or gambling behaviors.&nbsp; It's got pretty much everything-- including a "crisis" button that will dial 911 for you or direct you mental health helplines, such as NAMI, Mental Health America, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, The Addiction Center, and SAMHSA treatment referral helpline.&nbsp; (Just make sure to click the "USA" button. )</span><br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">We're so grateful to the creators of My Possible Self for making mental health tools so accessible!&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;">Best LGBTQIA2+ Mental Health App</h2>  <div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"> 	<table class="wsite-multicol-table"> 		<tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"> 			<tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"> 				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div><div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div> <div id='449842210400388625-slideshow'></div> <div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div></div>   					 				</td>				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div class="paragraph"><strong><font size="7">Evolve<br />&#8203;</font></strong><br /><font size="3">Looking for something more specific to your journey?&nbsp; Look no further!&nbsp; Being a part of the LGBTQIA2+ community comes with so many stressors from a society at large that perpetuates systemic oppression, as well as a smaller systems such as having prejudiced family members, suffering bullying at school, microaggressions at work, trolls on social media, or bigotry from total strangers.&nbsp;&nbsp;</font></div>   					 				</td>			</tr> 		</tbody> 	</table> </div></div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><font style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">The creators of <a href="https://evolveinc.io/" target="_blank">"Evolve"</a> recognized this, and came up with an app specific to the LGBTQIA2+ community and allies.&nbsp;&nbsp;</font><br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">The app has interactive therapeutic activities for a variety of LGBTQIA2+ specific situations, such as "exploring your identity", "coming out to loved ones", "dealing with microaggressions", "being a proud ace", and "living in a homophobic society".&nbsp; It has activities to help you with your relationships, increasing your self-love, and deal with social anxiety, all based on mindfulness and meditation.&nbsp; It also has a journal feature to keep track of your feelings and thoughts.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span><br /><br /><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">It's due to some amazing people out in the world that we are starting to have more and more resources available for people of all walks of life!</span></div>  <h2 class="wsite-content-title" style="text-align:center;">Best OCD App</h2>  <div><div class="wsite-multicol"><div class="wsite-multicol-table-wrap" style="margin:0 -15px;"> 	<table class="wsite-multicol-table"> 		<tbody class="wsite-multicol-tbody"> 			<tr class="wsite-multicol-tr"> 				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div><div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div> <div id='194129498339982560-slideshow'></div> <div style="height:20px;overflow:hidden"></div></div>   					 				</td>				<td class="wsite-multicol-col" style="width:50%; padding:0 15px;"> 					 						  <div class="paragraph"><strong><font size="7">nOCD<br />&#8203;</font></strong><br /><font size="3">Let's talk about a disorder that's widely misunderstood-- obsessive compulsive disorder, or OCD.&nbsp; No, it's not just about being a perfectionist or a germaphobe.&nbsp; OCD is a sometimes very debilitating or disabling disorder that causes unwanted thoughts and feelings (obsessions) and/or uncontrollable urges to do something repeatedly (compulsions).&nbsp; These can involve a range of subjects and topics, from dirt and germs to intrusive fears that they will hurt themselves or others (even if they've never had violent behaviors).&nbsp;&nbsp;</font></div>   					 				</td>			</tr> 		</tbody> 	</table> </div></div></div>  <div class="paragraph"><span style="color:rgb(63, 63, 63)">Many people with OCD often get little to no understanding and empathy from those around them, and can even have their struggles turned into a joke (due to a lot of negative media portrayals and stereotypes).&nbsp; That's why the <a href="https://www.treatmyocd.com/" target="_blank">nOCD app</a> can be so powerful!&nbsp; nOCD is basically a mix between a message board/social platform and a therapy app.&nbsp;<br /><br />&#8203;It not only allows you to reach out to others who share your experiences-- nOCD can allow you to get help from a certified OCD specialist (which is covered by Blue Cross Blue Shield, UnitedHealthcare, Cigna, Kaiser Nor-Cal, Aetna and others). They provide a free 15-minute call to get more information. <br /><br />&#8203;If your insurance doesn't cover therapy, there are still options for you! Feel free to use the self guided Exposure and Response Prevention Therapy and SOS tools, post to the community, and read others' inspiring stories of recovery.&nbsp;&nbsp;</span>&#8203;</div>]]></content:encoded></item></channel></rss>